Dear Diary 🌞
You are probably going to hear about my work out now and then, because it is a part of my life, and its importen for me that my work out “do work out” for me…..something it did not do….outside in my patio 😊🤔
Me- happy back inside in my “work-out-studio”😊
I had really looking forward to do my work-out outside in my patio, but I did discovered that I had some spectators, some neighbours was watching me. Not just watching me, but they where literary looking down at me,- from the upperside of the patio. 🙂 It didnt feel very comfortable, so I did put a big umbrella over my step- machine 😅. It didnt work out that rather😅. So now Im “back in business” in my own “work-out- studio” in the guest- room again😊 ,- and it feels like “coming home “, in away.
With out umbrella and with umbrella,- any way- the patio is perfect for barbecue 😊
Im back again with my normal work-out- schedule. 4- 5 times a week, more than one hour each time, and I m happy, my body is happy and my mind is happy😊💛
When our summer-guestes is coming Im just going to move the step-machine, weight and yoga- mat in the livingroom and do my work out there. We dont use the livingroom during the summertime any way,- most of the time we are outside and enjoying the summer🌞
By the way,- I actually do my yoga- exercises outside,- and I m not sure why that do not feel uncomfortable with that? 🤔. Any way,- its feels good to have a nice relaxing and “stretching” ending in my work- out “session” with some yoga- exercises outside in the sun 🌞
Happy body- happy mind 😊
I have allready told you about some of my reasons for why I m doing work-out,- and one of them is for my mind 💛
When Im working out regularly its easier for me to handle different challenges in life. To be honest the 7 last years had not been very easy (maybe because I did broke a mirror 7 years ago👀???⭕but not on purpose) ,- and 2019 has so fare been a bit tough and “spiced up” with even more challenges. Then it is important for me to try to have as “happy mind” as possible 😊,- and look for solutions, insted of even more challenges. And work-out do actually help- not for the different challenges,- but help me to look for solutions, and that its easier with a happy body and happy mind 🤸♀️💛
Im going to tell you about the different challenges, but not yet, when Im a bit more ready for that 😊
I do different exercises when I work-out. I like to start with my step-machine, and use 30 minutes there, before I started with the weights 🏋️♀️. I do 4-5 differents exercises with them. 15x 3 times. They are 3 kilo each, maybe not heavy for some, but I did started with less kilo 6-7 months ago 😉. Then its 15×3 situps, before I end my work-out session with some yoga-exercises. Stretching my body a bit “here and there “😊
My mind is brighter, lighter and happier 🌞😊🌞and my body as well💛
Happy body, happy mind and a very happy woman 😊
Work- out with my weight 🏋️♀️😊🍱
An other reason why I work-out is because I want to put on some weight on my body. But its not easy, I know some people think it should be easy for me to put on weight ( as well as for other people that are natural skinny), but its not easy. I have no idea how many different proteins-cures I have taken, or “good adviced” I have tried with out any success 😅. My body is just created this way,- Im naturally skinny, I can nearly eat what ever I want,- and thats just the way it is 😊,- but it has taken me many, many years to accept that….and a bit “mind-work” too. And one of the reasons WHY it has been so difficult to accept my body just the way it is, is because of other people’s “stupid” comments 🤤🙄
I think if no one had “remind” me about something I allready know- the fact that I m a skinny tiny woman, and about my weight, I havent given this “skinny- body- weight “- thoughts so much energy that I have done.
Things like “Oh! You need to eat!”, or “Do you have anorexia?” , or “Dont you like food?”, or “You look like a skeleton”, or “Do you enjoying throwing up?” or “Oh! You look disgustingly thin” ect. ect. ect🙄🤤. Unfortunately words like this does something with the mind 😔. And this connents has normally come from persons that have a couple of kilo to much, and normally its also comments that comes from other womens.
For some strange reason its actually “allowed” to say this comments to me (and other people that struggle with to put on weight). But if I had told this things in the opposite direction,- like “Oh! You are fat”, or “Oh! You need to stop eating!”, or ” You look like an elephant”, or “You are disgusting with so much fat/body-fat” ect..ect,- then I m actually a bad person🤔…..hmmm…..
So,- WHY? and WHAT is the different?
Is “everyone” allowed to give “thin and skinny” people negative comments about theier body and weight? But its different if it happens in the opposite direction?
I have my challenges with my weight, and other have theier challenges with theier weights- but we are still not allowed to give negatives comments to a person about it,- positive comments and positive advices is a totally different thing💛,-but this is just my opinion 😊. I think my body is my “case”, my “problem” and my “challenge “- not any one else – at least not in a negative way😊😉😊
Look,- the difference looks good to together 😊 and happy too😊. Im the yellow, long, skinny, happy giraffe 😉
Obesity is a challenge in today’s society,- but its different kinds of obesity and also some kilo to much. But this is something I m going to “talk” a bit more about in an other post😊
On thing is for sure,- its more healthy to have a couple of kilo to much then to less😊 And no body is built the same way,- we are all so different – and that’s a good thing😊. Isn’t easier to accept the differences ang give a nice comment insted ?😊
I do like my body💛🏋️♀️
I do like my body now, and it fits me perfectly good 😊,- even I want to put on a couple of kilo more. Its because I will feel more comfortable with that, and also I know its will be good for my body and health😊. But my body works perfectly fine, Im healthy, my body has given birth to 3 lovely and perfect babies. I did even breastfed them, and have carry them around, and now they are 3 lovely, healthy young adults 😊.
I dont write this because I want to step on any ones toes. I just think its a bit importen to illuminate that involuntary less weight on the body is not just easy to handle- as it is for some people that have challenges with to much weight. And the body and weight”issues” is also a bit “mind- work” 😊.
Normally I have just “accept ” the different negative comments that some people has told me, and also normally just kept quiet,- but as older I get, a bit braver I get too……😉😊….
For maybe 15- 17 years ago, when I was a studnet and study to be a teacher, a woman that study together with me, she was maybe 10 years older then me, and probably 20 kilos heavier then me, and she could not “shut up” about my weight and my body, it did come negative comments “all the time” untill one day……
We was standing in a line, and then she was behind me. Suddenly she put her hands on my shoulders and said very loudly, so everyone could hear her ” Uh! You are so thin that it is disgusting”. And then she just walked away. It didnt feel very good, to be honest, and I was also a bit tired if hearing “this” about my weight. So I did have a serious talk with my self, and then went over to her table, and asked her:
” Why is it okay for you to comment my body and my weight in a negative way? But if I say to you- oh, you are so fat, you should stop eating so much. Then I m actually the “bad”one. What is the different? You have no idea about what I m struggling with or not, when it comes to my body and my weight. ” She didnt answare me, and she did never talk to me again, in any way.
An other time, this is just s couple of years ago, I was going to take care of a female patient in the homenursery, and her husband was very big, actually what we call unhealthy obesity.
He did look at me and said in a very rude way: ” You are so skinny, you cant probably not do a good nursery- job for my wife”. (Yes,- homenursery is heavy work in many different ways- but I can handle them all😉😊). I just turned around and looked at him and asked him: “So, how did you get so fat? Maybe you want to share your secret with me?”.
He didnt comment my body or weigth the 9 weeks I did took very good care of his wife,- and of course he could not tell me why he was so fat or share his “secret” with me 😉😊
I like me body the way it is now, and I m totally allowed to love my body and my weight,-without any kind of negative comments for that 💛 this is the way I m created, and Im very very fine with that 😊 ( but it took a bit hard mind work to accept it and also some years😉💛)
A very happy me 😊💛and I have every reason to be happy of different kinds of reasons 💛