Hi ❣ Its so nice to see you again 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛
I did meet Jeff again on Friday evening,- and it was so nice to see him again. Really, really good 💛.
Last time I did meet him was in January this year ,- and that was not quiet “the best meeting” between us,- but I have at this point choose to let that one go. We cant go back to “the past” and “change” it any way 😊.
Nothing “bad” happen, but the contact and meeting between us was “strange” if I can use that word. I actually did feel I was like “number 10 in line” at that point 😅. So I did “slow down” a bit on the contact with him.
The “relation” between us has been very different and strange from what I m use to when I meet “some one” I becomes serious interested in. Its over a year since we met first time here in Spain,- but since I m living here in Spain and he, at that time was living in USA, the contact between us has been a bit “commeci-commeca” the last year 😊.
The time-different between us has been one thing, our different work-situations an other,- and the question “if he would get his spanish visa” also a factor.
And we are two different people with different experience in life, also when it comes to the relation between woman and man. Something that means we actually “act” a bit different too. And,- yes,- it is a bit “culture- difference” between us 😅. Probably more for him then me,- because “we- here in Europe” has got a lots of “input” by different media- channels (film, songs, social channels ect) about “how the American culture in different areas are”. But the other way around,- not so much 😊. So what I m use too in a “relation”, as well as my imagination, is a bit different from his. And an tiny little other thing,- I m a woman- he is a man 😅. So we also have a bit different “ways to act and understand” each other. My “understanding” of him is not always “correctly,- and “visa- versa” 😊.
But,- now he has moved to Spain,- and it feels so good 😍 at the same time so unreal 😊,- and a bit “scary” too. Now its the time for “us” to get to know each other for real. My “imagination” of him can be “wrong”,- and of course his “imagination” of me too. We dont know each other yet,- we just know we like each other very much 💛.
The time we did spend togheter last summer was great,- and the good thing was,- that the “contact and chemistry” we did have last summer in a strange and good way was “back home again” on Friday 😍.
What will happen between us further I dont know. But at the moment we are in a relation, and we are now going to have the possibility to get to know each other.
He told me he didnt want “to share me” with an other man,- and well to be honest,- I m not interested “to share him” with another woman either 😅. I dont like that kind “of sharing- game”. I m not a sweet and tasty cake 😅. And I dont like to “share” when I m in a relation either. So,- he is going to “have me” totally for him self 😉. (….and I hope I will have him totally for me self too 😍).
Now it is our time to get to know each other for real, in the real life ….in Spain 💛😊.
Im glad I didnt “put my life in hold” totally this last year for him. And that was not the point either,- because what if he didnt got the visa? But yes,- I did wait for him last autumn,- because he did ask me if I would wait for him, and he told me he should come back again last October,- something he didnt do.
Insted he did used his last “visa-weeks” for 2018 on a american friend in Asia. Now I can understand him, at that time I didnt at all. But when he did have his american tourist- visa he was just allowed to travel a certain number of weeks/ months per year outside USA. Rules Im not use to or actually dont know about, because I m an European. So,- yes,- I do understand that he wanted to meet his friend when he had the “opportunity” to do that. But no,- I didnt like it at that time,- at all 😅. And an other thing,- we did think a bit different on “our relation” at that time too.
After October I did stop waiting and started to ” live my life”. Something I don’t regret at all. I was at that time not in a “relation” with him…..at least not in my head. And I have learn a couple of things about my self (and men 😅) during the last year too 😊.
But,- I didnt forget him,- and I dont know why. Its like my heart didnt forget him, but my mind did try too.
I know he is here in Spain now, and I know he has moved to Spain, he is going to stay here, and I had a great meeting with him on Friday,- but still “everything” feels a bit “unreal” 💛. Like “a dream that has come true” ❣
Maybe it feels unreal because of the time? From last summer to this summer? And small “happenings” like different “expectation” to each other during the last year? Im not sure,- and its not importen now,- it will any way be and feels “real” that he is “just around the corner ” 😋. It just take a bit time now in the beginning to actually understand that he is here 😊.
My heart says “go for it”❤,- my head “mess” a bit with me,- and gives me some reminders about “my not to good “experience” with men” 🤔.
Those “reminders” will probably be in “my head” for a while – but I think its importen for my to try not to “live by them” or give them to much focus.
Because,- if I do, I actually can “create” a bad “setting” between us. Then its easily can become “a kind of truth” this “not to good experience” I have with men. And I don’t want to do that 😊 💛.
But a tiny, silent “reminder” will probably be there, in my head, for a while, now in the beginning of “our relation” , as a kind of “protection” for my heart and feelings 😊. And I think that’s natural when you have some bad experience from the past.
Im really looking forward to see him again,- I m not sure when,- but my last holiday-guestes from Norway are travelling back to Norway tomorrow,- and then “my days” will be a bit more “mine” again for a while – and we will have a better time and opportunity to get to know each other,- and find out what this “relation” between us really are 💛. Is it an imagination or actually something real 😍 ?
Im really looking forward to spend time with him and get to know him ❤. Then we see whats happen ❣
…..and I have some sweet butterflies flying around in my stomach when I think about him 🦋 😍. And I also get a big smile in my heart and face as well. It feels good 💞 (and a bit “scary” too…..its a long time since I have felt it like “this”).
I hope you too have some “one special” in your life💛,- that makes you smile when you think about the person 😊,- and maybe give you a couple of sweets butterflies in your stomach too 🦋. It is a very good feeling ❤.
I wish you a great day or evening where ever in the world you are 💛 and thank you so much for reading my blogg and dropping by today too 💛.
See you soon 💛
Im ready to meet Jeff again,- and I m really looking forward to see him again and get to know him 💞.