A tiny Tinder- experiment 😉

Hi ❣Its so nice to see you ,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛

I’m still #single,- but I need to admite it had been nice to meet someone, someone that could be a nice #boyfriend. It’s just seems that’s not so easy to meet or find 😊. On the other hand,- I haven’t been looking very #seriously around rather. (….maybe I need to “move” out from my cave first? 😅 … )

It had been nice to have someone “#special” in my #life that also did think I was something “special” for him 😊. Someone to do different things together with. Like a walk at the beach, eat dinner together, watch a movie, just spend a bit time together, giggle a bit together, dream together and a bit more 😊.

It happens if it’s #happen, it would and could be fine,- but I’m not even sure how to do this #dating in a #seriously way anymore😊. Where to meet someone, how to do it 😊 ?

It’s different kinds of #online #dating #webpages,- but does anyone meet someone for a long term and seriously #relationship online? Some, I think,- but that’s a quite few one,- or? I have actually no idea.

I did try out a little, not very serious “#experiment” on #Tinder for just some few days 😊. I did activated my Tinder account and did put in some new photos of my self, and did #change my #text a bit too.

The first days my text was more and less like this “I’m a #happy #norwegian #woman that’s lives and works in Spain. Im #enjoying my life. Im #positive and #realistic, and #romantic too”.

And then it was just for me to push the “like-button” 😊. I don’t remember how many “likes” I did send out to different kinds of men,- but it was a bit 😅. I know I should been counting, unfortunately I forgot 😊. But I did got a lots of “#matches”. I should had counting them too 😊. Anyway it’s not so important,- it was just a tiny, simple and not very serious “experiment” 😊. It was just a bit #fun to do 😊.

Then I did I added some more text to my profile. The “#magic” #words “I’m looking for a seriously relationship”. 😉

And suddenly I just had 3 matches left 😅. What did just happen? 🤔 Well,- obviously it’s not many men around my age ( +/- 10 years up/ down my age ) that’s actually are looking for an seriously relationship,- that’s for sure. Or……. ,- maybe it was me that just didn’t #tempted any of this men to get more acquainted to see if there could be something serious together with me? To get to ( want to ) know me? 🤔

I don’t know,- I just know that the “magic” words “seriously relationship” acted as an eraser and removed most of my matches 😅.

So,- what do you think? Aren’t single men in my age ( +/- 10 ) in general not very interested in a seriously relationship? Or did I, me, and the thoughts of spending to much time together with me scared them away? 😊

It’s fine to be single, Im in general and normally enjoying my own #company ,- but I think it would be even better to be two,- as long as there are a #sweet match on different levels between the two persons and in the #relation 😊.

Anyway,- I think maybe I just leave the dating to next year 😊. We see,- its not something I have many serious thoughts about. But actually it would be fine if he just came riding on his white horse and just picked me up,- like a handsome, gentle, nice, (rich) and very #sweet #prince 😉. It’s allowed to be #dreaming 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 💛 Thank you so much for dropping by today too,- and for #reading my #blog 💛.

See you soon 😊

It is allowed to #dream a bit about #love and #relationship 😊. But is that “dream” of love and #serious #relation for #real on #online #dating ? Im not sure 😊.

It was fresh eggs and ham, butter and jam, but not made with love 😉 🥘🎂

Hi ❣Its so nice to see you ,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛

Well,- today we can talk a bit food,- and its fresh eggs and ham, butter and jam, and yes , cheese too, and bread of different kinds and a tiny “dasch” of a special chocolate too, or maybe it was a small piece of cake ? ,- and probably more,- I can’t remember,- and we talk #breakfast …but not in the “#consept” you maybe think 😊. Do you have time for this? This breakfast- post did took a bit longer time to write that I did #imagen before I started,- just so you now 😊. At the same time,- it did took a bit time to prepare “this” breakfast too 😉.

Im not going to #prepare a breakfast for you,- I do really dont like to prepare breakfast for anyone else then my children and my self 😊. Its one of the worst meal Im making to my holiday- guestes and others guestes,- but still its seems that they are #enjoying to eat breakfast “made by me” for some strange reasons 😉.

My breakfasts has been thrown right into the trash …. if it wasn’t “made with love”,- so Im obviously not the best breakfast- maker in the world 😅.

And yes,- I m able to #laugh about it now,- even make a joke and two. Natasja learned me that,- but it was a bit difficult to laugh about breakfasts “made by me” some years ago 😊. Im in #progress 😉.

And just so you know,- it can be too much sharing for some, and too little sharing for others in this post too. But Im just #sharing what I feel #comfortable with sharing today too,- and I had many, many turns with my self before I did post it too ,- because I know its a bit more in between the lines then the breakfast 😊. But I did choose to keep it all more and less just around “the breakfast” ,- but not the breakfast- table ,- its about weekend- breakfasts in bed,- together with a “mister” back there in Norway some years ago 😊. And I just repit myself now,- I have choose to let the focus in the story be around the breakfast. It can seems like a “small consept”. But this small consept, breakfast, was the best for me to share 😊.

I was use to take the weekly food- shopping on my way home from my #work every Friday, and it was one stop in one shop, and I was able to get “all and everything” we needed for the #weekend as well as for the up- coming week,- before I went home,- and could #enjoy the weekend 😊.

But you can say, that one, that “shopping- rutine” did #change a bit after I started to live together with this “mister”. And I actually did like “my easy and fast shopping rutine”. It was even a cheap shopping- trip too 😊.

Well, what to do, – it was my job in the home to take care of the food purchases, – especially since I was also the one who mostly made the food, the meals, and on Fridays I did quit my job earlier too, and I did had some time for this round. And I can promise you, I did really needed that time 🙄.

It was fresh egg from one store, fresh bread and a special cake in an other store. Jam and fresh butter was also #important. With that means ,- the butter needed to be open up from a new box Friday evening, or best of all Saturday morning. Imagen how many boxes of butter it could be in the fridge sometimes 🙄 ,- because,- is was no use in a open butter- box for the weekend-breakfast,- only un- open was usefull. 4 days butter with a “touch” of a bit darker color couldn’t been use to the weekend-breakfast,- ai, ai ai.

I did actually tried that a couple of times,- but for some #reason I didn’t understood, he did find it out,- and that was not very good…. for me to do, with the butter and the breakfast 🙄.

It was a couple of more things too, from other stores and the shopping- round,- but I don’t remeber it all anymore. Thats the good thing with our #brain. The brain is, after a while, able “to block” things thats not good or #necessary to #remember any more. So,- when thats said,- its a couple of things I cant remember anymore from this relationship,- and thats good 😊.

It was very important that I did buy the different things from the correct stores too,- not just the correct products, in the wrong stores.

And it was also very important that I made it all in the #correct way too,- and “#with #love”. It was a half a slice of bread with “this, another one with that”. I think it was maybe 6 half slices of bread with different kinds of topping on, and the jam needed to be on the right bread too, eggs cooked on time, cold and hot drinks, and something sweet to the end, like a special chocolate or a piece of cake.

I did made me a list so I shouldn’t #forget anything, or forget how to #prepare the breakfast.

Then it was this “weekend- breakfast- #session” in bed. Im not use to and was not use to eat breakfast in bed every weekend, both Saturday and Sunday. Im just use to do this on #special “#happenings” like birthday or mother’s day, or if I was really sick, or if me and my partner ( earlier partner miles away in the #past) wanted to be a bit #romantic and do something #nice and #cozy for each other.

Breakfast in bed is for me #connected to something #special. So it was a bit #change for me this new breakfast- sessions. But okay,- I did think it could be a new, nice #experience.

He wanted us to have regular days to made the breakfast. For example I did make the breakfast at every Saturdays and him every Sundays. I was not agree with that one. What if I was tired and wanted to sleep a bit longer on “my” Saturday or Sunday? I couldn’t know that infront, so it became every second day insted. If I did prepared the breakfast on the Saturday, he did take the Sunday,- and otherwise.

But,- there was a “limit” here as well. It was not just the “shopping- round”.

The breakfast should be starting to be prepared between 08.00 and 09.00,- and with love” ,- nja…..to start #preparing at 09.00 was in general a bit too late, it did actually took a bit time to prepare his breakfast,- and we should also preferably stay in bed until about 12.00 🙄. For me it felt like I did loose a lots of my day,- to just be in bed and eat the breakfast (my breakfast was not so big and complicated, and I didnt need to use hours to eat it 😅), listen to music and read. Well,- I did at least had the time to read a couple of books in this breakfast- periode,- thats for sure 😊. For him it was the newspaper, fresh picked up from the mailbox 😊.

But you know,- I didn’t always knew if I was to tired to start this breakfast- preparing at 08.00, but if it was “my day” it was my day, thats the way it was,- then it was just to do the breakfast. So, to be honest, I could be a bit tired when I did made the breakfast, and maybe I also forgot how long the eggs has been cooking 🙄. ( a egg-cooker- machine popped up at the kitchen one day,- so that one shouldn’t happen again . The eggs had a time too 😅).

Anyway,- I did started to dislike this “breakfast- rutine” more and more, and I was tired too,- and I in general probably forgot to prepare the breakfast “with love”,- I just #made the breakfast. Actually I did prepared the breakfast the way I normally did,- but not always with a big smile in my face at 08.00 a Saturday or Sunday morning. Like I already have mention,- it did took a bit time to prepare his breakfast too,- it was so much with a “little bit of this and that”. (And the breakfast in bed was not a choice- it was a “must”).

So then when I didn’t made the breakfast “with love” because I didn’t jump out of bed with a big smile and joy for making breakfast to him at 08.00 on a Saturday or Sunday morning ,- then his breakfast ended up in the trash. He actually did thrown the breakfast “made by me, but without love,- without a big smile in my face and joy” in the trash, and he did made a new one for himself. Because he did #deserved a breakfast made with love,- and if I couldn’t do that “only” thing to show him my love,- he could make it himself.

Even now,- when I m reading through what I have been writing Im thinking ,- “was it all?” “was it me ?” “Why didn’t I just run away and did gave a shit in the breakfast?” But I m also thinking “Do I really don’t understand the “consept” relationship, love and give with love?” Was it to much for me to even or just do the breakfast the way he did preferred it for just to show the love ?

Maybe nothing of this “breakfast- deal” was or is so difficult as I did made it too? Was it a big deal? Maybe this is a story and experience I shouldn’t have been affected by? I don’t know,- but it did affected me,- to be honest 😊. The, this meal- consept.

Its still days where I think I m stupid and have not a clue about #relationship and love ,- and maybe its just very normal to prepare breakfast for each other in a relationship this way? What do I know? Im not use to it from my parents, or boyfriends from my past or even my ex-husband. But as I was told,- I didn’t know very much about love and relationship rather.

And,- the question I have got many times the last years when I have told this story to my closets friends are “Why did you do this ?” “Why did you accept it?” “Why didnt you just walked away?”

I have been thinking the same many times during the last years,- but its very different to be #directly in the #situation and looking at it from the #sideline. And I didn’t told or talked very much to anyone about the relationship when I was in it,- because I did think I was the stupid one. The one who didn’t know anything about love and relationship, give and take, and important breakfasts. I did heard that a lot during this time with him. And then you starting to belive what your being told.

Anyway,- it did something with me when it comes to make breakfast to others,- and food in general. Sometimes I m just sitting and waiting for my guestes to throw the food I have made to them away,- before I take the chance to start eating 😅. Just kidding,- its not like that anymore,- but I still dont like to make breakfast to others.

Its actually not many years since I started to belive in my self again when it comes to cooking and baking.

I have actually been a teacher in “Bakery and food” at a school for students in the age between 16 and 20,- it was one if my first jobs as a teacher. I have also been working with food for over 3 years- with making cold tables, cuts and canapés. A job I did like,- normally I do like to make food 😊

And I m back in business again when it comes to make and give away my homemade cakes and invite people over to dinners, or a small snacks meal 😊. And now Im even sharing my #recipes with you too,- and all are “spiced up with love” just so you know 😉.

But,- step by step,- you know 😊.

Well,- that was a tiny long #travel into a weekend-breakfasts #habit from my past 😊.

I hope you all are #enjoying your breakfasts,- around the table or in the bed,- made with a smile and love,- or just made because you actually #need to #eat 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 💛. Thank you so much for dropping by today too,- and for reading my blog 💛.

See you soon 😊

#Homemade #afternoon- #tea #made by #me and made with #love 😊. I actually do like to made and #prepare different #meals for my #friends and #family 😊. What more to say? Its has just not always been like that for a periode in my life,- but I m back 😊.

Its was the last time….probably…..

Hi❣Its so nice to see you,- like always 😊I hope all is fine with you 💛

I have been thinking a bit about this american,- and actually wonder if I m going to hear from him again, see him again, meet him again? Probably not.

Its a #week since last time we did meet,- last Thursday. And its was also then I did ‘understand,- really did understand, that we properly have different #intention with our “#relation”.

It has crossed my #mind a couple of times befor, at the same time as I know he was working long days, and also was awake at different times then me. We was at different continents. We did live different lives in different time-zones. And I m a woman, he is a man,- and we are in many ways different. And I did had a #wish for something “more” 😊.

What I dont understand is why he did ask me to wait for him, or why he told me that he didnt wanted to “share me” with any one else, and that he had miss me. And a couple of other things. Maybe it was just words without any #meaning? In a way a bit empty words?

But of course,- at the same time,- we probably did have a different understanding for this sentence too….maybe….

The #communication between a #woman and a #man its not always easy to understand 🙂. At the same time as we still do have the same “#language” and #understanding for the meaning for so many #words.

Free shiping over 69$

In one way I do miss him a bit, in an other way not. I was really looking forward to get to know him,- but he was more or less always talking about him self. So in one way I did get the possibility to get to know him a bit 😅. But he actually didnt get the possibility to get to know me 😊. Maybe thats what I do miss? 🤔 Him to want to get to know me? Its not many times during the last year he actually has asked me the simple #question “How are you?” If he had, I had probably just answare “fine, but I do miss you”. But okay,- its nothing to “linger” about now 😊.

We did have a nice time #together last Thursday,- but I did also told him that I did think we wanted different things out of the #realtion. Something he didn’t #disproved or #confirmed. And I told him that I wanted to get to know him, have a #serious relation to him. I didnt got to much #reaction on that one either 😊. And I told him that now it was up to him if we met again or not,- so in my head and mind,- now he knows “where he has me”,- at least I think so 😅. But you never know 😊. Maybe I shouldn’t said this things at all? I actually dont know,- but for me it was important to, in a way “know whats going on here, in this, for me, strange relation “.

I havent #contact him since, and I havent heard any thing more from him either 😊. And I dont think I m going to hear any more from him,- even I have a tiny little #wish deep inside me somewhere,- that he did care a bit about “me”,- just not only about the “fun under the duvet”- thing.

Maybe I feel a bit like this now at this days because I feel like a “plan-crash”? 😅 It would be nice to have “someone #special” that did or had care a tiny bit?

But I have good #friends and #family thats cares,- so I m very, very #lucky 💛. And I m not serious sick,- its just an very bad #infection that will go away after some days, or maybe a week with #medicines, a couple of #appointments and a bit #healthcare 😊.

I do think it was the last time I did meet him,- last Thursday. Im going to be very supriced if I hear from him again. Its a bit mixed feelings around “it/him” ,- but I m not “#heartbroken” 😊. I dont think or feel I have “lost something” 😊. Maybe it was supposed to be like this? Any way,- Life goes on 😊.

I wish you a healthy and great day or evening where ever in the world you are 💛. And Thank you so much for reading my blogg and dropping by today too 💛.

See you soon 😊.

Last week’s full-moon at the beach,- nice and relaxing,- an on its own way to give “recove” 💛

You dont need Tinder if you have a “smashing” bikini- photo on Instagram 😅👙

Hi❣ Its so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛

Im not using Tinder at the moment,- havent used it for a while,- and it seems thats not very necessary with an Tinder-account if you just “put” a “smashing” photo of your self in #bikini at Instagram 😅. “Smusch”,- there you get a lots of messege- requests from unkown men. And many of them have one or two photos, maybe five 😉 and are following a x-numbers of people,- but have for some strange #reason not so many followers them self, on their Instagram account or on their Facebook profile 😉. Wonder why? 😅

Some of this requests are #serious people that are in a way serious #interested in you or what you are doing,- but most of this requests are just “#fake” and #scam. And not worth open at all. I normally delate them, one by one with out reading them. Just checking the profile, and then its delate and block 😊.

Its a lots of scam and #fraud “out there” in the “online-dating-world”. A lot. So be #careful,- both #women and #men.

Men “fall” easly for #sensual, erotic and sexy #profiles of any kind. Thats the way it is. And the people that #creates the fake profiles to get to a man, knows that 😉. Its so easy to get a man think with his “other head”. Even in #written form with a “smashing” and lightly dressed photo “on the side” by the #text. And also be award of prostitution,- if you actually meet a woman from an online dating webpages,- and she ask for money,- just go. Well at least if you wasn’t award of it from the beginning 😅,- and it is a “part of your game too”.

Its a bit of that too in the online dating pages,- prostitution.

Clearance Event

Its strange how fare a man actully can go,- how much he is willing to pay. And yes I mean pay,- in real #money,- just for the #imagenation of that “this woman” on the #photo is “his”. But in most of the times it is just an imagination. Nothing is #real,- and many times you are actually texting with an other man too,- not a woman, not “the woman from the photo”.

And many men want to be “#chivalrous”. With that means they get in touch in on or an other #online #dating channel, with a woman that need a bit economic help before they can meet. Like money to passport, money to visa and plane ticket. And the man is sending #money to the woman,- maybe by Money Transfer and things like that. And get an other new “smashing” and lightly dressed photo as a “Thank you, see you soon,- “this” is what you are waiting for”. “This woman” are “on the way” just for you.

It doesn’t matter what kind of “online- dating” #channel you are on, or are using. There will still be fake profiles. On each and every one #website. So be careful so you dont “meet” a scam and fraud that are just going to #empty your bank-account,- and never fill up your #heart or “take care” of other of your body- parts 😉. It is all just an imagination.

And then its the women,- we are not “better” then men in this “dating- situation”,- we just “fall” for other words, words we want to hear. And we pay too, money from our #private bank-account.

We are “#emotional”,- we fall so easy for “I love you”,” I miss you” ,- and other different #romantic #phrases we “love”, “want” and “need” to hear/ read. But a man that loves you dont ask for your money- help! Special not before you even have met him! If he loves you, he #respects your no! He is a man,- and are #able to find a #solution on his “money-problem” 😉.

And an other thing,- this fake men starting using the word “love you” and “miss you” very fast, very early in your communication.

Also here,- its just an imagination! Its not real! Dont pay for the words you #miss to hear, woman!

And the “same thing happen” for “us”. After a tiny little while with #texting the man,- if he understand that the woman has “falled” for his words and photo as well, the money- requests are coming. And, unfortunately, some women are paying, to easy!

I have only #experience this one time myself, last summer, from a Tinder-account.

“Tinder-Thomas” do I call this “experience”😅. He did started to ask for money, and for “just” 50 euro! But for me it was not “just 50 euro” at all,-for me that is a bit money,- and I also was award of this things too, this fake-profiles and scam/ fraud, – so I was actully a bit “bad” and that I did “play a long” for a little while 😅,- just to “see the #game”. I did never payed anything. But I wanted to learn a bit about “the game”. And they can take the game very fare! And keep up going for a while.

This men starting to “push” on “emotional buttons” if you dont send any money. Like “why dont you love me?” “I thought you where different”, ” you dont have a heart”,” you have no feelings” ,” you dont care for me”,- ect ect. Well,- you do and you are,- both have a heart and are different! Dont fall for this!

Dont ever fall for it! Dont ever send a cent to a man or woman you have never meet and dont know! Its just a game, its just a fraud,- and you will probably #loose too,- both your money and a part of your #dignity. And never meet, see or hear from this man or woman evere again,- when he/ she a) knows there are no more money to get or b) no money to get at all. But,- they dont give up easly,- just have that on in your #mind too. They are very patients!

Men fall for sensuality and sex, woman fall for “#sweet” words and “emotiens”. And this people that create this fake profiles knows that. They know how to create it all as “#real as possible”. But,- please,- in that #moment there are coming any #money-requests,- stop and drop the #contact. For your own sake!

I know it all can #feel so #real, but it all are a very bad imagination. Just to empty your “pocket”. Its nothing more at all. They dont care about you at all,- their only “#mission” are to get your money, honey!

And I also know its difficult to understand that “this” can actually happen to you. But have in mind,- “everything that can happen with or to everyone else, can also can happen to you!

In todays #social #media channels its so easy to create something that seems so real. Its a lots of different #techniques and #technical #tools to use,- for creating a “real profile”. So be careful,- “walk away” if there are coming up any kind of money-issue.

Unfortunately this, online-dating, is not the only way people can be scammed or fraudulent by. But today I did choose to put a bit #focus on the scam and fraud on online- dating 😊.

Im not the “only one” in the world that have a tiny wish for a #relationship 😉,-and online dating can be a good way to find and meet a boyfriend/ girlfriend,- most of the times 😊. And the people who are creating fake profiles knows, they knows that there are some “lonely #souls” “out there” that are easy “to get and use”,- for only getting your money. They dont #care about you or your feelings at all! I may be a bit “tought” now,- but unfortunately,- this is the way it is. Stop all contact if there are coming up any kind of a money-request.

It is at least my advice to you 💛. I dont want you to get hurt in this way (not in any other ways either)– but this kind of fraud and scam can actually #destroy your #life, your #economic life, and your dignity as well.

So,- just be a bit award,- if you are searching for “the love of your life” on online dating,- dont pay, dont “give” and dont “help” your online date with money 😊.

Well,- that was the “lesson” for today 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening whereever in the world you are 💛 ,-and be a bit careful if you are looking for “the love” online,- and Thank you so much for reading my blogg and dropping by today too 💛 .

See you soon 💛

Ps- if you think this post can be important for others to read,- you are very welcome to share 😊

I did choose a #bikini-photo today,- even the post is more about “I want your money, honey”,- its did starts with the “bikini- attention” 😊 .

So it was a bit “Friday 13th” 💚

Hi❣Its so nice to see you,- like always 😊I hope all is fine with you 💛

#Friday 13th is for different reasons seen as an “accident day”. But like I have told you before,- #research shows that this is one of the days there are less #different kinds of accidents then during the rest of the year 😊. But that doesnt mean it still can be a “#unlucky” or “#unhappy” day.

In #Spain its Tuesday 13th thats is this “accident day” ,- so does that mean I have 2 “accident days”? Because I m #norwegian that lives in Spain? Or just one? In case,- will it be Tuesday 13th or Friday 13th that will bring me most “unhappy” “episodes ” ? 😉

Tuesday 13th of August was a very normal day as fare as I can remember. Not any big “happy news” or any “big unhappy happenings ” 😊.

And,- 13. its a bit a lucky #number for me,- evene there havent been happen any “big sparkling event” of any kind in my life with this number as I can remember. Maybe its “lucky” because its a bit “unlucky” number? 😊

But this Friday 13th was actually #mixed with both. But most with a bit “unhappiness” 😔. So probably its Friday 13th thats my “unlycky” day then?

Millie did travel back to Sweden,- and are going to stay there for a short time, before she is going to travel a bit “here and there” for the next 6 months in East #Europe where her family are from. And then…..maybe she comes back to Spain 😊.

I hope she will get a marvellous time with a lots of joy and happiness, new experience and fun ❤.

At the same time it feels a bit painful 😔. She is in a way a bit “one of mine”,- a part of the #family,- and I don’t know if she even will come back to Spain again 😔.

I wish her a lots love and joy in her life,- and it would be a bit nice if she could be back together with my son in the middle, Fabian, again 💞. But at the same time,- if their #relationship doesnt work between them it doesnt work. And then no one of them are #happy,- and I really want them both to have a marvellous life ❤.

Today I did ask for a day off from work,- I m so so tired I actually feel a bit sick. But I didnt get it ,- the day off 😔. Unlucky for me,- the luck then is that its weekend,- so I can #relax a bit 😊.

An other thing,- I dont think it will be any more “#relation” between me and this american man. I think we want different “things”. I think he are more looking for a “regular” mistress, and I want to have a relationship. For him that in a way was an relation, and thats true,- it is a kind of relation. A relation I did misunderstood. But I want to have something “more” then just a “hot meeting under the duvet” now and then. I want to meet someone I can do others things together with as well 😊.

Well,- I can have a lover, but not him,- my #feelings for him is a bit to “#emotionally” for that.

I dont feel sad, just tired 😊. But to bad for me, that we wanted different things in the “relation”. Thats life 😊.

One of the reason way I m so so tired I think, is that me, and we, Mathilde and me, havent had “our” normal life for one and a half month now. Its not easy to try to do the best when the energy is not on “tip-top”.

And of course Im tired because of #work. Its busy and long days,- and not to much time and #energy left after. But I don’t want to use to much of my energy and thoughts about my work,- its not worth it.

Well its #weekend,- hopefully a nice one too thats are in front of me,- and for you too 😊. I really hope so,- for both of us 💛. Im so ready to just relax home this weekend,-“shake a bit of me” Friday 13th,- and with not to many plans 😊. Just fell up the energy- level a bit 😊.

I hope your Friday 13th has been nice to you 💛.

I wish you a great day or evening where ever in the world you are 💛 and thank you so much for reading my blogg and dropping by today too 💛.

See you soon 💛.

This weekend is time for just relaxing a bit,- outside in our cozy outside livingroom 💛.

He is a bit like Big, and I feel a bit like Carrie 😅( from “Sex and the city”)

Hi ❣Its so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛

I have been watching the famous serie “Sex and the city” a couple of times. I like that #serie,- but I m not sure whom of this four great #women in the serie I do feel familiar with or #recognize #myself into. No one I think,- Im more “just me” with a tiny, tiny “touch” of the different #characteristics and #personalities from this four women. But,- maybe my friends see me differently? I dont know 😊.

In many films and series, even song and music, and books too, we “meet” people, #characters or personalities that we in one or another way can recognize us in, or be #familiar with. It can also be situations and “happenings” in life as well 😊. At least I do,- I can relate my self to different characters or #lifesituations in a movie, series, books or songs/textes.

Im not sure why I do like “Sex and the city” ? Probably because it is something “familiar” in it,- and its a bit funny too, and its also “touced” with different kinds of “thruth with modifications” 😊.

Like I did told you some weeks ago,- I did meet again this #american man I did #date last #summer. And that we was, or is, in a kind of #relation 😊. But to be honest,- I have not a clue whats actually is “going on” 😅.

I havent heard to much from him or met him since that Friday 2 weeks ago, when he did came to Spain and we did meet up ,- and I haven’t any idea when or if Im meet him again.

All he writes to me when I ask if he wants to meet is “yes, see you soon”,- and I have no idea what time or day that is 😅. Maybe no time and no day at all.

It has been some busy weeks in my home after he moved to Spain,- and I know he has had it a bit busy too. Its not easy to move to another #country and also to an other #continent as well. Its a lots of different #paperwork, lines and ques to wait in.

And here, in #Spain, you just need to wait for your #time. Thats it! It can be a bit of test for the #patience,- and that one is not foŕ everyone 😊. You really learn to be patience,- thats for sure,- and you learn to wait until its your “time in the line” 😊.

I know this lines, ques and paperwork does him a bit moody too. And he has things to fix in his apartment as well. But still…..I m actually not sure whats going on and what kind of “relation” this is 🤔.

Im my head, mind and imagination you show a tiny bit of interest if you are serious interested in some one. And you try to make a priority or find a tiny bit time to meet. But I can be wrong….and have misunderstood something about “show someone your interes” 😉.

With that I mean to show a tiny bit of interest during busy days is just a little text to just say “Hello” or “Im thinking about you”, or “How are you?” Just some small “talk” textes to “show someone that they are on your mind”,- now and then, or even maybe a small phonecall during busy days.

At least Im a bit like that. But it seems like he is not quit “there”,- or,- he is actually not very interested in me,- after all. I m thinking that probably the last one is most correct. But…..then there is a tiny little “but” in there, somewhere inside me…..maybe he have another imagenation then me? About “this” relation, or about me? Or maybe its just a wish from my “innerspace” that I want him to be interesed in me?

Im not the “biggest chatter in the world”,- and I dont like to have to many or to long “conversations” “online” by whatsup or messenger or snapchat or what ever. But I do like to “drop by” and send a text to my children as well as my friends and tell them that I think about them now and then 😊……and, of course, also the one Im dating as well 😊. So yes,- I have done that to him as well, but the response is not quite big from him…..in my mind,- but I can be wrong here as well…..maybe in his mind he does “response” “well” in his own way? 🤔

I know we are all different, do things differently, like different things, handle “things in life” differently ,- also him,- he is different from me,- but….. so much different from other men? 🤔…..I dont think its to much differents between an European man and an American man,- but I dont know. It can be,- because its a bit different between norwegian men and spanish men, spanish men and english men…..and so one.

But my “easy” “explanation” in my #mind and in my #imagination at this point is,- I dont think he is very much “into me” and interested in me……when all comes to all……

…….. or he is a bit like Big in “Sex and the city”. My impression of him, his character and personality so fare is that he can be a bit like Big. He dosent look like Big at all,- but reminds me a bit about the characte. At the same time I don’t know him very well yet,- and maybe I never will get to know him very well either.

And then I feel a bit confused like Carrie did with and in her “relation” to and with Big in the serie “Sex and the city” 😅. Or maybe Im more in the movie “He is actually not interested”? 😅

Any way,- I dont feel sad, just a bit empty, and a bit confused. I did look forward to get to know him,- now I think its just the best for me to the let “the case” rest for a bit and see whats happen, or if something happen at all 😊. Im not going “to run after him”,- thats for sure. Feel I in away already have done that when I did, in a strange way, did wait for him for a year 😊.

If he is seriously interested in my I will probably hear from him,- and…..he had heard enough from me for a while now,- I think 😉.

Its not easy this “love- , relation and relationship”- thing in the mature age, I think. Im not sure if I do understand “the concept” any more 😅.

Im anyway going to enjoy this weekend,- even I did in my imagination thought maybe I should being enjoyed a bit of the weekend together him. It seems that thats not going to happen 😊. But okay,- I have other nice and fun things and plans to do 😊. I will show you tomorrow 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening where ever in the world you are 💛and thank you so much for reading my blogg and dropping by today too 💛.

See you soon 💛

I do feel a bit like Carrie at the moment,- a bit confused about the “relation” to “Big” / this american man 😅. Maybe I was “carried” away “by the moment” and some imagentions? 😊.

It feels a bit “unreal” 😍

Hi ❣ Its so nice to see you again 😊 I hope all is fine with you 💛

I did meet Jeff again on Friday evening,- and it was so nice to see him again. Really, really good 💛.

Last time I did meet him was in January this year ,- and that was not quiet “the best meeting” between us,- but I have at this point choose to let that one go. We cant go back to “the past” and “change” it any way 😊.

Nothing “bad” happen, but the contact and meeting between us was “strange” if I can use that word. I actually did feel I was like “number 10 in line” at that point 😅. So I did “slow down” a bit on the contact with him.

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The “relation” between us has been very different and strange from what I m use to when I meet “some one” I becomes serious interested in. Its over a year since we met first time here in Spain,- but since I m living here in Spain and he, at that time was living in USA, the contact between us has been a bit “commeci-commeca” the last year 😊.

The time-different between us has been one thing, our different work-situations an other,- and the question “if he would get his spanish visa” also a factor.

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And we are two different people with different experience in life, also when it comes to the relation between woman and man. Something that means we actually “act” a bit different too. And,- yes,- it is a bit “culture- difference” between us 😅. Probably more for him then me,- because “we- here in Europe” has got a lots of “input” by different media- channels (film, songs, social channels ect) about “how the American culture in different areas are”. But the other way around,- not so much 😊. So what I m use too in a “relation”, as well as my imagination, is a bit different from his. And an tiny little other thing,- I m a woman- he is a man 😅. So we also have a bit different “ways to act and understand” each other. My “understanding” of him is not always “correctly,- and “visa- versa” 😊.

But,- now he has moved to Spain,- and it feels so good 😍 at the same time so unreal 😊,- and a bit “scary” too. Now its the time for “us” to get to know each other for real. My “imagination” of him can be “wrong”,- and of course his “imagination” of me too. We dont know each other yet,- we just know we like each other very much 💛.

The time we did spend togheter last summer was great,- and the good thing was,- that the “contact and chemistry” we did have last summer in a strange and good way was “back home again” on Friday 😍.

What will happen between us further I dont know. But at the moment we are in a relation, and we are now going to have the possibility to get to know each other.

He told me he didnt want “to share me” with an other man,- and well to be honest,- I m not interested “to share him” with another woman either 😅. I dont like that kind “of sharing- game”. I m not a sweet and tasty cake 😅. And I dont like to “share” when I m in a relation either. So,- he is going to “have me” totally for him self 😉. (….and I hope I will have him totally for me self too 😍).

Now it is our time to get to know each other for real, in the real life ….in Spain 💛😊.

Im glad I didnt “put my life in hold” totally this last year for him. And that was not the point either,- because what if he didnt got the visa? But yes,- I did wait for him last autumn,- because he did ask me if I would wait for him, and he told me he should come back again last October,- something he didnt do.

Insted he did used his last “visa-weeks” for 2018 on a american friend in Asia. Now I can understand him, at that time I didnt at all. But when he did have his american tourist- visa he was just allowed to travel a certain number of weeks/ months per year outside USA. Rules Im not use to or actually dont know about, because I m an European. So,- yes,- I do understand that he wanted to meet his friend when he had the “opportunity” to do that. But no,- I didnt like it at that time,- at all 😅. And an other thing,- we did think a bit different on “our relation” at that time too.

After October I did stop waiting and started to ” live my life”. Something I don’t regret at all. I was at that time not in a “relation” with him…..at least not in my head. And I have learn a couple of things about my self (and men 😅) during the last year too 😊.

But,- I didnt forget him,- and I dont know why. Its like my heart didnt forget him, but my mind did try too.

I know he is here in Spain now, and I know he has moved to Spain, he is going to stay here, and I had a great meeting with him on Friday,- but still “everything” feels a bit “unreal” 💛. Like “a dream that has come true” ❣

Maybe it feels unreal because of the time? From last summer to this summer? And small “happenings” like different “expectation” to each other during the last year? Im not sure,- and its not importen now,- it will any way be and feels “real” that he is “just around the corner ” 😋. It just take a bit time now in the beginning to actually understand that he is here 😊.

My heart says “go for it”❤,- my head “mess” a bit with me,- and gives me some reminders about “my not to good “experience” with men” 🤔.

Those “reminders” will probably be in “my head” for a while – but I think its importen for my to try not to “live by them” or give them to much focus.

Because,- if I do, I actually can “create” a bad “setting” between us. Then its easily can become “a kind of truth” this “not to good experience” I have with men. And I don’t want to do that 😊 💛.

But a tiny, silent “reminder” will probably be there, in my head, for a while, now in the beginning of “our relation” , as a kind of “protection” for my heart and feelings 😊. And I think that’s natural when you have some bad experience from the past.

Im really looking forward to see him again,- I m not sure when,- but my last holiday-guestes from Norway are travelling back to Norway tomorrow,- and then “my days” will be a bit more “mine” again for a while – and we will have a better time and opportunity to get to know each other,- and find out what this “relation” between us really are 💛. Is it an imagination or actually something real 😍 ?

Im really looking forward to spend time with him and get to know him ❤. Then we see whats happen ❣

…..and I have some sweet butterflies flying around in my stomach when I think about him 🦋 😍. And I also get a big smile in my heart and face as well. It feels good 💞 (and a bit “scary” too…..its a long time since I have felt it like “this”).

I hope you too have some “one special” in your life💛,- that makes you smile when you think about the person 😊,- and maybe give you a couple of sweets butterflies in your stomach too 🦋. It is a very good feeling ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening where ever in the world you are 💛 and thank you so much for reading my blogg and dropping by today too 💛.

See you soon 💛

Im ready to meet Jeff again,- and I m really looking forward to see him again and get to know him 💞.