Trying to “find” my natural hair colour by using Coca Cola 😳😅

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you during this time we all are going through,- together 🧡

I’m not using a lots of my time on different online channels, but in the beginning of the quarantine and curfew I did read closely “everything” that was to read online 😅. It was very much about the coronavirus and Covid19, and the different situations around the world,- natural enough 😊. And also some other things and stuffs to read,- like washing your hair in or with Coca Cola 😳.

If you wash your hair with Coca Cola it should do at least three good things for your hair,- make thin hair look a bit more “fluffy”, shiny and also make your “natural” colour come back. Or at least make your hair lighter if you had been a bit unlucky with the home- colouring, and it became a bit to dark under that “process”.

Well,- my hair is a very Scandinavian hair,- so it’s not thick and “fluffy” if I don’t “style” it a tiny bit. And…well,- I have been colouring my hair for a while,- we talk years actually 😅. The last year I have actually been colouring the hair close to the roots one time every month, in my home. Because this hair has became a bit lighter then I actually did like 🙄.

During the last year I have been pretty sure that this “new” light hair is grey hair 😳. I’m good in my 40’s, and my menopause is “just around the corner”. Things and stuffs are happen with my body as well as my hair,- just because I’m getting older. That’s the way it is, – but I’m still not “prepared” for or “ready” to get grey hair 🙄.

I’m not the biggest hairdresser visitor either. Im going to the hairdresser once or twice a year. I get very bored to sit in the hairdressers chair,- even when I try to knit, read magazines or take look on different online media channels on my phone. At the same time I really want to go to the hairdresser now at days. My hair is a bit quarantine and curfew hair at the moment 😅. And with different colours and cutting combinations too 😅.

I haven’t coloured my hair for at least 2 months now, I can do it if I want because I have home- colouring in my home, two boxes actually. But I’m also a bit curious about this “new” colour that’s slowly showing up in my hair. So I did think “why not try to find a tiny bit out about that or this new colours in my hair when Im in quarantine and have curfew anyway? ” 😊

Last Spring when I was to my hairdresser I did “whined” a bit about my “new grey hair”,- but my hairdresser told my that it was not grey, it was more like light brown or dark blond hair, but not grey. I didn’t believed her, I thought she just told my that to in away “comfort” me 😊. But now,- a year later I m not sure any more,- maybe my hairdresser was correct last Spring, and maybe I actually don’t have got grey hair, yet, but it’s just lighter the new hair that’s grown out? And then it can looks grey, special in between the different dark colours I have in my hair, and in different lighting? And to be honest,- I’m actually not sure what colour my natural hair are anymore. It was dark brown one time, but during pregnancy and things like that, the colours can, of course, been changing a bit. And of course,- I have been colouring my hair during many years as well.

I have also cut my hair, twice, during this quarantine and curfew time. First time I did ask my oldest son to cut it a bit, because its looked like I had take my fingers into some electricity. He is not a hairdresser and it was actually his first time he did cut someone else’s hair. His “hairdresser” job was okay enough, but I did cut a bit more my self a couple of weeks later. I’m not sure how clever this two “hairdresser- sessions” in my home was,- but well,- it is what it, is at the moment. And as long as I do manage to style my hair in a way I feel comfortable with, the only day in the week I m outside my home for shopping food and run some other errands, I’m at the moment okay with my “hair- situation”, but still very curious about this “new” colour in my hair.

I have ask both my son and his friend now a couple of times if there are any grey hair in my hair. Both says no, it’s just lighter, and also when I take a look in different light- settings on my own, my “new” hair looks lighter, and not grey. So, I’m starting to believe that maybe there’s some light brown or dark blond hair that wants to grow out, and not grey hair, yet ☺️.

I have try to take some photos of my new light (or grey 😳) hair in different lighting,- but its difficult to find out if it’s grey hair or light brown/ dark blond hair that’s growing up. And yes,- home hairdresser cutting gwas not the cleverest thing to do as you can see 😅

That’s also why I did try to wash my hair with coca cola this morning, or wash is not correct. I should, in a way, wash my hair with coca cola, and then rull my hair in, with still the coca cola in, into a towel for around 30 minute before I then washed my hair in the “normal” way with shampoo and conditioner. I wanted to find out what colour my hair actually have, so I wanted to try do wash out the other colours with coca cola this morning 😅. If it also became “fluffy” and shiny it will be a plus ☺️.

After my tiny coca cola hair wash,- it was not easy to try to show you the tiny little lighter colour changing with being my own photographer 😅

And in case its grey that’s “shows up” I have some home- colouring to use. If not,- I’m going to try to just have my natural hair colour, and try to get use to that 😊.

Well,- after my “coca- cola session” my hair colour did change a tiny bit and become a bit lighter. But not more “fluffy” or shiny 😅.

My hair colour didn’t change as much as I thought, so I’m going to try this coca cola trick one more time. If that doesn’t help to see what kind of colours that’s actually are under all the other colours I think I’m going to try to squeeze some fresh lemon juice in it. And if my hair gets extremely electric or dry after the lemon- trick,- well then I can try to “calm it down” with some olive oil, aloe vera and advocate. And if that doesn’t help,- well then I just need to do the best of it until the hairdressers are open again here in Spain,- and that can be, maybe in June? 🤔

Coca cola for my hair, fresh lemon just in case I need to fresh up the new light colour,- and even new colours in case “it all” becomes a big mistake,- and olive oil, advocate and aloe vera in case my hair needs a really nice treatment after this “trying to find my natural- hair colour treatment” 😊. So,- yes,- I’m a bit “hair- prepared” 😅.

The good thing with hair is that it is grows out again,- and there’s different “styling- solutions” to use in the meantime. I don’t like bad- hairdays,- I think most of us don’t like that. But I need to admit that during this quarantine and curfew time I’m just putting my hair up in a ponny tale,- closely every day, except from that day when I’m going to the food store. So I will probably “survive” some more bad- hairdays in my home before the hairdressers are going to be open as well as the possibility for socializing together with my friends too 😊.

I’m actually a bit vain when it comes to my hair,- but during the last 6 weeks I haven’t used very much time and energy to style my hair. At the same time,- I’m dreaming about my next hour at my hairdresser even that’s probably 2 months in the future 😊. And I’m also very curious about this new hair- colour that has trying to show up as best as it could during the last year 😊. I’m not ready for grey hair, but still curious 😊.

How are your hair- days during this quarantine and curfew time? Are you looking forward to be able to visit your hairdresser soon? 😊

I have in one way accepted my “hair- situation”, I haven’t to many chooses 😅. At the same time I’m doing my best to style my hair when I’m going outside my home for shopping food and run some errands,- one day in the week 😊.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today too 🧡.

See you soon 😊

Me,- Sunday morning 26. April 2020 with coca cola in my hair 😅

I did try out this “coca cola- trick” for my hair this morning 😅. I’m a bit curious how my “natural” hair- colour actually looks like, – and a quarantine and curfew time can be a good time to find out of that. So fare,- I’m still not sure what my natural hair colour is 😅. I probably need to wait a month or two more,- and probably try the coca- cola trick again a couple of times too 😊.

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“The best age … what kind of age is that?” 🤔

Hi❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

I hear and read that “the age” I’m getting closer to,- pluss/minus a couple of years is “the best age”. More and less around the 50’s. But what does that mean? What does it mean to be in “the best age”? Because I don’t quite feel I’m closer to “my best age” in my life,- and the 40′ so fare has not been “the best years in my life” to be honest 😅. So,- can it, hopefully, be better? 🤔 Maybe things changing a bit when you have turned the 50’s, and then are closer into “the best age”? 🤔 Or it this “saying” just a kind of “comfort” because in the 50’s you are more and less “in the middle in your the life”? Halfway of the life … in away …

And how can the 50’s be better, or “the best age”? In the 50’s when the hormones really are starting “a rollercoaster” for both men and women in their bodies and minds. Because, in this period in life, is when “the midlife crisis” and “the menopause” are dropping by. So,- What so good about that? 🤔 It doesn’t sounds very “best” to have a hormones rollercoaster running around in the body and mind, to be honest 😊.

“Every age has it’s own charm” is a sweet saying we use in general to children and teenagers,- but I think this saying can be used to every age, period and fases we humane are going through in life 😊. All ages has it’s own charm,- I have just no experiences to the charming ages I have in front of me,- like the 50’s, 60’s, 70’s, 80’s or 90’s😅.

The children has their own charm, the teenagers too, and the 20’s,- yes, a charming age that as well,- even it seems that many people in the 20’s actually think they have “all the wisdom in the world”😅,- but still don’t have live through the 30’s or 40’s yet 😉.

The 30’s are more relaxed with their own charm, but still a bit “besserwisser” 😉. Then it’s the 40’s and “all” the thinking about “the life” is starting. Like “What have I achieved, and different expectations of my own life and life situation?” Because I’m actually not the only one in the “end of” 40’s that have this thoughts. There are some “souls of us out” there with thoughts like this 😊. And this thoughts are not always charming, or feels good to have. They don’t feel like “the best” always 😊.

In the 50’s the life should be more simple, relaxing and a bit “easy going”,- and the life situation should been in away “solved”. Or at least the society expectations can feel, be and experience like that. I know- because I feel exactly like that,- just in the really “opposite direction” 😅. There’s not much “solved” out or “easy going”,- that’s for sure 😅.

The children, if you have some, are getting young adults and manage their life more and less own their own. The house is closely payed down, your job is safe, the economy is stable and also the partnership or relationship are maybe stable and joyful too. And maybe there also are some grandchildren as well in the family? The life is yours in a way now,- in the 50’s. You have more and less just the responsibility for your self and your life, and the life situation should be a bit “comfortable” too. And that’s why I think “the 50’s” is been referred to as “the best age”. But – for many this is not the way it is, it’s not the best age,- it can be challenging to not have manage “the society expectations” when you have turned 50. And then it doesn’t feels like the “best age”. You feel a bit more like an “failure”. And on top of that,- the challenge menopause and different things that happens in life around the “midlife crisis”. Sounds not like “the best age” if I put it that way.

The 50’s, 60’s, 70’s, 80’s and 90’s,- well, like I did mention,- I haven’t been there yet 😅- so I can’t write to much about this ages with my own personal and private experiences. I can only use the different impressions I have of these age groups,- by conversations and by my own meeting of this “age- groups”, and by working for and with people in this ages, as well as be together with family and friends in this ages 😊. Most of them seems very relaxed about their ages, even a bit happy too,- and in away it seems that they are in their “best age” in their own way 😊. In general 😊.

I think every age is “the best” in it’s own way, and that it also depends on the different persons different expertations in life and their life situations. Also their own definition and understanding of “the best” and “age” 😊.

My own experience is that I enjoyed being 10 years old and playing in the forest with my friends, or fishing in the ocean together with my daddy 🎏. St that point it felt that to be 10 years old was the best thin ever 😅. But I really enjoyed to be in the 20’s too. I became a mammi and also got my second education 📚. It was not to bad that either 😊. It was not to bad in the 30’s either, busy, but not to bad at all. A lost of new experiences and knowledge in life and about my self 😊. I have “struggled” a bit with the 40’s – as some of you know 😅,- but there’s still a couple of more years left to be in the 40’s for me,- so maybe this “age- period” still can be “not to bad” after all? Who knows – I don’t. But I’m “on the case” and working on it 😊. Then we see in a couple of years “there in the future” somewhere 😊. Life can have and give some nice surprises now and then 🥰.

Every age has it’s own challenges that we need to live and learn through and by. It’s charming to be 10 years old and a lots of good thing in that age, as well as someone in the 90’s can be really charming as well, in their own way 😊. And I think someone in the 90’s feel lucky too, special if they are healthy too😊.

I don’t know what the best age is 😊. The 50’s can be a good ages if you feel comfortable and happy in your life and life situation. At the same time its different challenged changes that’s happen in the body and the mind in this age. And those seems not “to good”,- but it’s probably a part of “turning 50” 😊.

I think the reference to the best age in the 50’s is used because of the expectation from your self as well as the society around you and this “where you should be in life” in this age. At the same time it seems like a “comfy” thing to say – because the 50’s is halfway to 100 😳. I also think the 50’s is reference to “the best age” because you have more and different life experiences than when you was 20 or 30 or 40 😊. Hopefully a bit wiser, and eith a bit more knowledge, and it’s easier to “give a bit more shit” in not to important things and stuff 😊. But what do I know? This is just my thoughts and questions about “what is the best age?” , “what does it mean to be in the best age?” and “why is the 50’s in many situations referenced as the best age”? 🤔 😊

What do you think? What does “the best age” actually mean? For you, or your general understanding of the “saying”. Is it a kind of “comfort” because we are getting older? So fare,- I don’t know what “my best age” is or would be 😊. I think every age has something “best” in it in it’s own way 🥰.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡 Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today too 🧡

See you soon 😊.

What is “the best age”? Haven’t every “age” it’s own charm and own way “to be best” in? 😊

What is the best age? What kind of age is that? How define “the best age”? Or have every age something “best” in it? I just wonder …. 😊

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A bit mixed feelings today … about this day … 🎁 🎀

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡 I’m fine,- but I have a bit mixed feelings today, about this day 😊. That’s life- and I m not going to whine too much about, just a little bit 😊.

Early in the morning around 07.00, the 27. January many years ago I was born. So today is actually my birthday 🎁. I’m not going to celebrate it,- and it’s a couple of years since I actually did celebrate my birthday too.

I did have a kind of celebration when I became 40. “The bump” gave me and “the bump” a hotel- weekend in one of the bigger city in Norway. And my two sisters did visit me in our home. The only time they actually did visit me when I was living together with “the bump”. And,- that was not their mistake, – it was just not easy to visit me when I did live together with “the bump”😔. But when I became 40 it was okay to have a tiny bit visit / guests 🎁. The years I did live together with “the bump” I had totally 3 guests all in all. At my 40 years birthday it was my two sisters, and one time a friend of me did visit me. That’s it 🙄. And my birthdays after that I have been living in Spain,- and there hasn’t been any celebration 😊.

Well,- in away I had a tiny celebration last year at my birthday 😊. Fabian, my son in the middle, and Millie, his ex- girlfriend visit me and did bring cakes with them 🥰. And in the afternoon I was visiting Natasja, and she did make dinner to me. It was a nice day, a nice celebration of my birthday 🎁.

So why do I have this mixed feelings today? Well,- it’s a couple of different thoughts that “jumps” into my head,- about the life, the age, expectations, dreams, wishes, goals, experiences in life, what have I manage- what can I manage- what will I manage? “Where does the road goes further” ? I’m in “my age”, but still not “come” any longer in life …. single, renting a home, always empty bank account, working as best as I can … So it is my age and my lifesituation together that’s bother me most today.

I have in one way been able to “put” a lots of different things in my life so fare,- so many different experiences, education, work, children, marriage, divorce, travels, relationship, friendship,- and Spain 🌞.

It’s more and less the last 6 years that’s feels like has been “stomped” ,- there has somehow been no development – or has it?🤔

I have many nice, great and good experiences during this years 🧡. At the same time as it all can be “cut down to”- surviving, to working, to pay the bills 💰. It has not been to much various in my life here in Spain,- and in some way that’s good, I don’t like to much challenge variation either 😅. But in an other way, – I should wish I had have the possibility to travel a bit more in the area, as well as visiting both Norway and other countries too, go to a concert or at the cinema, out for a dinner and a bit more then that too😊. Actually “do a bit more things” 😊. But in general it cost a tiny bit 😊.

At the same time, – I have learn different things about myself as well as the life. I have met a lots of great people. Got some incredible good friends too during this years 🧡.

If I start thinking to much, special about my age, and my life/ lifesituation I don’t feel very okay 😔. I feel a bit old and “out of fashion “, “out of order”, kind of “gone out of date”, or something like that,- to be honest 😳. And then my focus get over to this in general a bit “scary” “getting older,- process”, wrinkles, grey hair, where did the life went, the scary menopause, what have I manage in my life, my singl- status, “am I going to be single for the rest of my life?”, my bank- account- status, “will that one always end in zero when the bills are payed and the food are bought in, will there never be any extra left?, my livingsituation, and so on 😳.

And what can I do myself with the different things I don’t like in my life, my life situation, and the getting older process? 🤔. I feel I have tried so much, and are still trying my best to “turn the situations” around, the situations I’m not to happy with in my life. But it changes soooooo slowly that I closely can’t even see or feel it 😳. But maybe this is the way my life should be? 🤔 I know I need to work and focus on my thoughts too 😅. But that one is not easy when there’s a couple of mixed feelings “rumbling” around in my “system” 😅.

I think most about “what have I manage in my life so fare” and “what’s in front of me”? The “same” at has been for the last 6 years? Is that what I can “expect” in the future too? Work to survive? And that’s it? Get more different kinds of experiences in life for what? How to use them? What to use them for? Or will I be able to actually “do a bit more things” to? Travelling? And a couple of other things? 🤔

But,- I’m on my way to change somethings in my life,- like my working situation and my income 😊. I have got some regular online shift for some kind of support, a kind of health support. I have got 4 hours shift 6 days a week during all February 😁. That means regular work at the office as well as regular work at home 😁. I’m very grateful for that 🧡. I know February will be hard, really hard, – and March as well. In April the online company can be more flexible with my hours,- but now I need to “show off” and show the company that I can work, accept the hours I get, even it’s late evening shifts, and do a good job too during the next two months before I can ask for “better” shifts 😊. As well as I also need to “show off” at my great office job too😊. Because I really want to keep that job as well. Any way,- it’s makes thing so much easier to have regular working hours online as well as at the office,- a kind of regular working schedule,- even I have 10 and 12 hours working days to look forward too in February 😅.

But I think and believe it’s worth it, all this hard, long working days I have in front of me,- and I will also see some results after the hard working too 🤩. At least I hope so. And that’s feels actually good 💚. It’s going to be busy with so many hours and also keep my blog “up and running “,- but it doesn’t matter as long as I’m one step closer to one of my goals 🥰.

When it comes to this nice wrinkles and the grey hair that’s slowly “shows up”, and “all” the other physical changes to be older, I’m going to put the focus on “all that” little by little, post by post when I’m starting writing more about “getting older” 😊. Not today,- today it’s more then enough for me to just think about my lifesituation I’m in, in my age 😬 😳.

Some says that getting older is “the best age”,- I’m still not so sure about that one. But I can try to do it my best age? 😊

From 0- 10, and from 11 to 20 – it’s my childhood and teenagers,- and in general I will say these 10 years are pretty much full of good memories. As a child as well as a teenager 😊. From 21 to 30 I did manage to get 3 children, be married and also divorced 😅. And even started on my last education, as a teacher 😊. My 30’s was not to bad either,- very busy, but not to bad at all. It was work and studies, children and football, karate and ballet. And even some “secret” and funny “relations” that was more and less just “my” relations 😁 😉. It was travels, family and friends,- it was some celebration and parties too, and even a bit it cinema and concerts,- it was incredible busy,- at the same time a good time 😊. Until I met “the bump” in the end of my 30′ s 🙄 …. that’s actually 9 years ago 😳.

Then it was the 40’s,- and I’m still “there” actually in the 40′ s,- and have more then a couple of year left to “stay” in the 40’s 😊. But this “10” years has so fare been hard. Like I have already mention,- it has been a lot of “work to survive”,- and that’s it. Of course “spiced up” with many nice holiday guests, and friends, and a kind of relationship with my neighbour for some years. And some very mistaken dates 😅 and different changes in work- situations 😊. And new great friendships too 😊. But there has been a lots focus on work, earn enough money to pay the normal expenses as rent food, electricity and water. I hope that can change a bit,- and that my more then 10 hours working days / working shift now will “pay off” and with that I mean literary pay off too 😊.

And, yes,- a very nice and sweet boyfriend hasn’t been to bad either 🥰. Maybe there’s one around “the corner” in close future? 🥰

I know this year will be fine,- I just need to work very much,- not just physically working, but also with my brain, my mind, my head, my thoughts. Because I have a tiny little ( much more then little to be honest) believe in “thoughts becomes things” 🧡. So it is “mindset therapy” and focus on “Law of attractions” for me too 🧡. Then it is very important to have a positive focus and a positive imagination as well,- that’s for sure 💛 – even that’s not always easy to do 😊.

So, yes it is my birthday today,- and it will be “celebrate” more and less like most of my normal days, and my last birthdays during the last years has been celebrated, – not at all 🎁. Or I can say it will be celebrated with work 😊.

You have probably manage to find out how old I’m to day? I know I haven’t mention my age in my post, just different numbers 😊. Well,- I have done that on purpose, – not mention my age,- I’m not use to that number yet,- and I still don’t like “the number” either 😅.

Anyway,- I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today too 🧡.

See you soon 😊

It’s my birthday today 🎁. And I don’t feel very comfortable with my “new” age yet,- it will probably come after a while ,- “the comfortably ” 😅. Ps- photo was taken 11. January 2020.

Well,- it’s my birthday today,- and, honestly, I have a bit mixed feelings about that today 🎁. About “getting older”. In general it doesn’t bother me,- but this year, this time, this birthday has actually bother me a bit 🎀. It’s not so much my ages that’s bothers me, just a tiny little bit 😅. It’s more my age together with my life situation,- but maybe that will take a new turn this year? 😊💚💛🧡.

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I just wonder a bit about …”the plastic fantastic” and the recycling ♻️ 🤔

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

Our environment is changing a bit, and we do what we can do for “go down” various polluting areas – such as the use of plastic, and the recycling of plastic too ♻️. But,- I just wonder 🤔 … what about the plastic “fantastic” …. abd all this different kinds of Plastic Surgery ….

All this different kinds of plastic surgery who is being operated on in people’s with free will?  Into tits, butts and cheeks.  And what about those plastic muscles that have also become so popular to operate in the stomach as a six-pack, or arms, thighs and legs? Just so they could “look” a bit “fantastic” and a bit “cool” 👑.

What happens to those who have operated in some plastic “here and there and everywhere” when they die?What happen with “the plastic” ?🤔 

How is all that plastic been recycled when they die?  For it does not rot like the rest of the body does if it is buried.  And if the body of the deceased is to be cremated?  Aren’t there different toxic gases from all that plastic? 🤔

I know some use their own body fat for various such beauty operations.  And that recycling goes by itself when a person dies – whether he / she is buried or cremated.  My question is only plastic surgery- how is it recycled? ♻️ Special after someone has died? Will there be different plastic balls with different shapes, forms and fashion underground after the decay process then? ⚾️ 🏀 🏈 🧶 And what if someone choose to be cremated,- what do they do with the gases from the plastic under a under such a “circumstance” ? 🤔. What do they do? How do they do it? How does this kind of plastic been recycling? I just wonder because I dont know.

Maybe its stupid questions, – but,- yes I do wonder a bit about this. Do you? Or do you msybe have any answers to my questions? 😊

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today too 🧡,- even today it’s was just some questions I have actually been wondering and thinking about for a tiny while, – special after all the focus on all the plastic we use and the recycling process with that kind of plastic 😊.

Anyway,- See you soon 😊

Just my plastic recycling bag in my home,- I did had any better photo to use 😅

I just wonder,- what happens to the “plastic fantastic” plastic surgery plastic that are used in beauty operations? ♻️ How does that kind of plastic been recycling after a person with that kind of things in the body dies? 🤔 😊

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I’m not ready for this at all, – to be honest 💙

Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡

My oldest son is going to move in to me for a couple of weeks, – and to be honest, – I’m not ready for this- at all 😅.

I have been living on my own for around 3 1/2 month now,- and not even close to find my life routines yet , or even close to the lifestyle I wish and want to have in my life 😅. And I have starting to actually be very fine and comfortable with living on my own too 😊. And I like to have no one else to take care of, have any responsibility for or take or pay some attention to then myself at the moment 😊. And that doesn’t feels to bad at all any longer 😊. But of course that will change when he is moving in,- and of course I do say yes to him as well, he is my child, my son, he is my first child. actually the one who in a way “made” me to a mammi, gave me my first experience as a mammi 🧡 – but still I’m not a tiny little bit of ready for this “change” in my life. Live together with my oldest son for a while.

And if you think I’m “delivering” my son now,- I don’t do that at all 😊. He knows I’m like “zero” ready for this 😅. Probably he is not to much ready either for moving in back to his mammi in the age of 25 😊. But as mammi you do what you can and need to do for your children 💙. Ready or not 😊.

And of course I will help him to have a place to stay and live, sleep and eat when he is looking for something else 😊. The plan is that he and a friend of him are going to find something together,- but that’s not done in a “zip”. I know that 😊.

They also did mention another plan for me to day too,- and I was not to much “trilled” over that one either 😅. Oh my,- I’m a very difficult mammi 😳.

But he is an young adult man and it is his life 💛. And he need to find his “way” in life,- even that’s not sure is the way I wanted or do wish for him. At the same time,- I want him to be happy in his life 💚. And hopefully,- his “backpack” are filled up with a bit of “good stuff”, good “raising”- stuff from me. Like taking care of him self, survive, be honest, work, pay the different expenses, make food, be happy, be nice, be gentle and hopefully a bit more then that too 😊.

Their plan, my son and his friend, is to build one Van each,- or not built it, but buy one Van each and decorate them as a kind of a home,- and drive around “here and there and every where” on an kind of life- adventure 😳. “Gulp”,- said the mammi heart then 😳. Oh my,- I didn’t like that though very much either.

At the same time,- I know he is an “entertainer”,- and I know he likes to travel and drive. I know he is an “adventurer” as well, and also an “explorer” too. And maybe this is something that he needs to do,- for him self together with a friend? What do I know? I just know my heart skipped a beat and two with worries. But that’s also because I know him,- he can be a bit “thoughtless” and a bit “clumsy” too. And not always think everything very good through before he handles 🙄. He is a very clever young man, and have some good and wise knowledge up there in his brain,- but sometimes he forgot to use it 🙄. At the same time,- don’t we all do that now and then? And my heart also skipped a beat and two because I’m a mammi, his mammi,- and I’m just worried something not to good can happen to him “there on the roads”. And I’m not there.

He has the “streaming” and he has some other online work from home, so he can actually work more and less “wherever” in the world he want as long as he have internet,- and I know it will probably be fine. It will probably go well,- but still there’s a “gulp” inside me 😳 just a bit like this 😳. And it’s just this,- “I’m just a mammi, and I’m his mammi” 💙.

On the other hand, – it’s not sure anything of this “roadtrip” will happen,- even I actually do think so. When he had got something on his mind,- he goes for it. But, – that means it can be a bit more then a “couple of weeks” living with me. Special if they are going to decorate this cars to in a decent, safe, practical and good way too 😳. I think that will take a bit much more than a couple of weeks to be honest 🙄.

At the same time,- I get the possibility to use the “mammi- tactics” and maybe get him away from that Van- though, travel and adventure trips idea. On the other hand,- will that be correct for me to do? Wouldn’t that actually be a bit selfish? Because if I do,- I actually just do it more and less for myself to just “know” where he is, and that all is okay with him. Have a kind of “control” over him, – and that’s not correct either.

Because, – yes,- of course I’m worried, worried something not to good can happen to him on this trip and on this adventure. At the same time, – I can’t protect him for and from “the life”,- and I think this is important for him too,- this planned Van- adventure. At least to just have the dream. Maybe it will happen, – this adventure and travel in a Van,- maybe not. But when it all comes down to the end,- it’s his life, his choices , his dream,- all I can to is to be here for him. Love him, and support him as best as I can 💙. Give him some advice,- and hope he will listen to them and use them as well 😊.

On the other hand, – I did actually raise this “entertainer, explorer and adventurer”- young man. He was just 6 weeks old when he was on his first travel together with me. And I have travel with this 3 children in my car with a tent in the bagasje “here and there” in Norway on holiday- trips. As well as we have travel around in Europe too, visit different countries, met different cultures. So in on way, I did “teach” him “adventure” and the journey and fun with travelling and “exploring”.

Anyway,- one thing at the time,- my son is moving in to me next week,- and I’m not ready for that at all,- and will probably not be it either 😅. That’s a part of me “growing up” as a parent, and a part of getting ready to learn to live my life 😅. It will probably be okay,- good to have him a bit around me,- at the same time,- not the possibility to use the “time out button” when I want 😊.

What have you done in a situation like this, – used your “mammi or daddy tactic”,- and worked for another solution then travel around in a self- build Van? Or,- just wish your child the best and crossed fingers for the best too? 😊 And motivated your child to “go for his/ hers dreams”?

I know what I’m going to do,- even my mammi heart skipping a beat and two ❤.

I wish you a great day or evening wherever in the world you are 🧡. Thank you so much for dropping by my blog today too 🧡.

See you soon 😊.

Me – a mammi for 3 great young adult children, – but even they are young adults and are living their own life it’s not “everything” I’m ready for 😊. At the same time,- I’m not “ready” to go back an be not just me anymore either 😅.

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