Hi ❣ It’s so nice to see you,- like always 😊 I hope all is fine with you 🧡
I haven’t forgot about my blog, my readers or to write,- but the last days and weeks has actually been filled up with a bit more carbon then diamonds 😅. And then I need to remind myself that carbon is actually diamonds. And try to focus as best as I can on the “carbon- process” becoming small diamonds instead of just carbon. As most of us know,- it’s under high “pressure” the carbon also becomes a diamond 💎. It’s not always easy to remember, but still it’s help a bit to turn the focus in that kind direction 😊.
It’s not always easy to do that, see that the carbon is diamonds, or try to focus on the positive things around you, and special when I feel there’s a new challenge jumping out and up closely every day. Challenges can be positive, but they can feel very negative in the beginning. I’m still not quite there where I feel that the different challenges I have met the last weeks are with a touch of magic and sparkling diamonds,- but I’m getting closer 😊.
My daughter handle the situation she was through one month ago very well. She is incredibly strong and braver ❤. I admire her guts. She is really like an diamond 💎. I’m actually taking the situation probably a bit harder then her. I can’t still understand that “someone” actually needed to “give” my daughter 2 bumps in the forehead, 2 bumps in the back of the head, cigarette mark on the cheek, swollen right shoulder, swollen lower back and tailbone, handcuffs on the left arm (then one must have held a hard grip in the arm to make handprints in the skin), swollen thumb. Fortunately, it was not broken, not the back and tailbone either or the toe was broken. Gripping marks on the left leg, like handprints, bruises on the right foot, and a swollen toe on the right foot. All this just during some few hours.
She was to the doctor again this Friday and are going to probably have the last check in around two weeks. And she’s doing very well. She meet up to work every day with joy and happiness. And she is smiling, using time together with her friends, and enjoying her life. It’s so great to see how she in a trun and two just “took back” her life again ❤. How she just “trun the carbon to diamond”. But yes,- its bothers me that I couldn’t protect her for this kind of “marks” in life 😔. I m not crying anymore, and it’s makes me incredibly happy to see my daughter without to much and to many scars on her body and her soul after this incident 🥰. And I know everything around this situation will be fine, it just take a bit time, but obviously shorter than I had in mind, and that’s a very good feeling 😊. But that’s also a kind of diamond in the situation- that all in all- things around this situation getting much better then expected 💚.
But then it’s just need to “jump” up and out some others tiny challenges/ carbon that’s needs to be handle 😅. Just in case.
It’s actually not a very “big deal” the different challenges during the last two weeks either,- but still when it comes to the “straws in an already empty wallet” for me it feels a little bit challenging to handle. For some reason I can handle a lots of different and difficult situations and challenges in my life, even the situation my daughter was through I have handle actually quite calm, sensible, with overview and care even when I was crying. But when it comes to my empty wallet I very fast can go “down in the basement”, and be very stressed about the situation 😳.
I know why- it is a bit from the past. “Happenings” for around 8- 9 years ago , after I met “the bump”, the ex that just dropped me off in Spain for 7,5 years ago. I just let it be with that. I can’t do anything with the past anyway. Unfortunately 😔.
It has been very much wintertime here South of Spain lately, and the houses and the electricity are not built for to much wintertime here in South of Spain. It has been stormy weather with a lots of wind, rain and even snow ❄.
Our electricity collapsed, and three sockets in the house were destroyed. I have manage to fix one on my own ( something that’s good with having study physics a tiny bit). The two others I need to wait with fixing until the wintertime is getting a bit more like Spring time. The fridge and freezer, and also the stove got a bang. Fortunately, only the fuses had to be replaced, but both the refrigerator, freezer and stove are so old that it “goes” for a little half a machine now.
And of course the internet collapsed too, so I didn’t had the possibility to work for some days either 😌.
I know it is homeowners’ job to fix the fridge, freezer, stove and sockets. But things takes time in Spain. And for a few years ago, the washing machine collapsed, and the homeowner spent “only” 7 weeks getting a new washing machine. I could not take the chance of waiting 7 weeks for a new fridge, freezer or stove. And things take even longer in this corona situation than “normal” in Spain. So I fixed myself instead and use the money I had in a already empty wallet. But at least we have fridge, freezer and a useful stove again 😊. It’s not all and everyone that have that now at days 😔. So that’s actually a tiny bit of a diamond instead of some carbon in my home 😊.
And I also did find another solution for my internet. I can’t be without the possibility to work. But it cost a bit that too. To change it all. But at least and hopefully the internet now will continue be stable and not as unstable as it has been before. So it’s a tiny little diamond to just have an functional internet actually.
And yesterday suddenly one of my grinders just broke when I was eating 😳. I know I need to fix that one, but there’s not very much to use to fix it with at the moment. I just cross my fingers that it would not be to painful until I have the possibility to go to a dentist 🤞. And to be honest,- I haven’t found the “diamond” in this case. I just hope the “diamond” for a while will be as less pain as possible.
So,- the carbon for the last two weeks are actually not to bad at all when I take a tiny overview. It’s just need to be fixed and that costs some money. And for me a empty wallet is big challenge. But at the same time I need to turn this around. I have at least the possibility to earn money, even it will take s bit time to save up the money I needed to use during the last two weeks. It’s not for all and everyone to have that possibility either. To earn money. To have a job now at days. That’s also a kind of diamond in my life,- to have the possibility to be working and earn money 😊.
The ironic in this situation is that I actually delivered back the car two months ago for saving money, and I have used twice as much as the car had cost me during the two last months in just one month now 😅. On the other hand,- if I haven’t delivered back the car I haven’t had the possibility for using my money to fix this different things that’s needed to be fixed during the last weeks 😊.
And I feel I haven’t done very much useful when I was whine and complain about unforeseen and high expenses. But I actually have done a couple of things. Positive things. Like small “diamonds” in the daily life 😊.
I have been painting. There are more painted glass bottles under “production”. All are gifts to friends that has helped me and my daughter during the last month. If the internet has been in function this glass bottles has been taken a bit longer time to paint, because I had use more time to do some freelance writing work on my computer.
I have been knitting. Two knitted thigths are finish to a friend of my, two scarfs to my oldest son and also two similar scarfs to his dog, Zorro, are finish as well. And if I have been able to do my job on the internet I haven’t been able to finish so much knit stuffs 🧶. Because then I had used more of my time on working instead 😊.
And when the fridge, freezer and stove was fixed I actually did some baking too 😊. I just needed to be sure “all and everything” was fixed and in function. Try it out in a way 😊. So I made a very spicy “spice cake”, to spicy for me and my daughter, but perfect for my oldest son. And then cinnamon swirls and pizza swirls. Both perfect for all three of us. Then I have to fill up both my daughter and my freezer, and also my eldest son’s freezer with some baked goods. I’m not sure I have done that, at least not so much and so many if the freezer, fridge and stove has not been broken 😊. Then it became in a kind of “diamond- food” for all three of us 😊.
So what I can say about the carbon I have been whined and complaining about during the last month and weeks is that there’s some sparkling diamonds just in front of my eyes 💎. I just need to take a good look, turns things around a bit and try to focus on the positive things around the situations 🥰. It’s not always easy to do that, but it makes things so much better when I manage to see the sparkling diamonds instead of all the black carbon 💎.
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